officially LEGAL!

Thats right....im talking about my age here!

wohoooo...age 21.

now i can finally go clubbing without the worries :D

Not much has happened in between new years eve till today...im still heartbroken, fat and desperate...pethetic.

But if its one thing im thankful for in this world, its gotta be my FRIENDS

On the strike of 12 am, 11 January 2010, i recieved a phone call from one of my close/bestfriend from high school..Ganesh. This really bought a smile to my face...remembering on how much trouble we put ourselves in back in the days...hahaha

Then, 'A' called me soon after....i was confused in emotions..happy but upset. hmmmm

yes, i did expected the call but i never imagined that 'A' didn't say 'i love you' at the end of the call. never..

I slept it off soon but early in the morning i got a surprise phone call from Aunty Maggie wishing me a happy bitrhday! Aunty Maggie is Jaclyn Victor's mom and i felt so touched and happy till i felt cheerfull throughout the day. THANK YOU AUNTY MAGGIE :)))

The sms-es and phone calls continued the whole day and thanked God that i was blessed with friends who cared. So, THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!

A very sweet friend of mine, Bie, even wrote a blog about our friendship to wish me a happy birthday too!

WOW...i was (and still am) really touched by this.

Bie (or 'baby, is what i call him) is one of my bestfriends from ASWARA bout 3 years back.

And all i can say about this friend of mine is that he's one in a million who actually appreciates friends!..and he SHOWS it.

A very valuable lesson to me as well.

FUCK LOVE and all that bullshit....friends and family is all that we need in this life and remember that, people!

anyway, im 21 now and im gonna try to love life more.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIF!!!

here comes 2010, there goes my 'A'...

Remember 'A'?

Well....'A' has made it clear to me that responsibility and work commitment has taken the best of 'A'.

That left me dumped for the new years...what a way to go..tsk tsk.

Really la, now im finally proud to admit that LOVE scares the shit out of me!

i had all my dreams, hopes and future between us and then within a day...all wasted.

im deeply hurt and saddened that 'A' gave up that easy while here i am still holding on to hopes that somehow with some miracle, it's gonna be worth it in the end..please please oh please.

till then, these tears has made my cheeks salty and this nose of mine has turned into rudolf's.

With the passing of an old year and the coming of a new one, may 2010 be the start of something more beautiful in life for me.

fingers crossed and happy new year ya'll!

i am an addict....for VEGEMITE!!!

Yes yes...It's true people!

i may be Malaysian by nationality but im Australian when it comes to taste..hahaha

The first time i tasted this 'misunderstood spread' i was shocked to the taste buds as extremely as possible but after a few more spreads on toasts, i finally had fallen deeply in love with this wonders-in-a-jar <3

What is vegemite you may ask?....

well, Vegemite is actually yeast extract from the brewers!

Thats right. And i dont even drink...lol

What does it taste like?

Salty salty salty with a bit of a beefy and bitter taste.

Doesn't really sounds delicious eh....But once your used to it, trust me, heaven it is :p~

Give it a go and take your time finishing up the whole jar (by weeks, months or even years) and we'll see if you'll change your view on Vegemite based on the first time.

I LOVE VEGEMITE!!!!!!!!!!

R.I.P Brittany Murphy

"2day the world lost part of its sunlight" is what Ashton Kutcher said on Twitter and i have to agree.

Brittany Murphy is a stunning actress with a bubbly personality and she's one of my favourites as well.

It came as a shock to me when i learned about her sudden death on the 20th December of 2009.

Brittany died of a cardiac arrest in her bathroom (the same day my granddad suffered the same attack but thankfully survived) and was pronounced dead at 10.04 am (LA time).

She will be deeply missed and will be celebrated as one of the best A-list actresses around..

rest in peace

Jaclyn Victor's Fan Gathering

12/12/09-Sat

2-6pm

Restaurant Artista, Tropicana mall.

Jaclyn Victor managed to organize a simple yet fun high-tea gathering that day and she had a surprised for me as well!!!

a few weeks back, we met at a fren's b'day bash and we sang a duet of halo together..this time it happened again.

I was just enjoying my meal when Jac called out for me and Sunni (birthday boy) to come up stage and sing an acapella version of halo together. HAHAHHA...let me remind u that it was not planned!

Sunni over exegerate the song and that leads me and Jac to 'lostville'..lol..

blurrr

Then we sang gemilang together.

It was not much of an activity but the whole point of the gathering is to..well,...gather! kan kan kan..haha

but I got more than anyone else did though ;p

There were roughly about 50 fans there and it was just nice :)

She even had a surprise birthday cake to Sunni..so sweet.

PS: Jac and Zalekha organized the event a day before, so kudos to the girls!

'A' keeper!

Hey there guys...

been a while, i know. But thats only becuz i've been too occupied on embrasing the blessing that cupid has gifted to me :)

If you've read my previous blog then you'd understand..hehehe

soooo...updates:

'A'...i just LOVE 'A' !!!! Seriously!

'A' has been nothing but a sweet dream with beautiful surprises. Everything 'A' has done for me is just sweet and thoughtful.

Its been almost 3 weeks now and we are growing stronger and deeper in love.

I have to admit that im not really the kindest boy on earth or neither am i everyone's cup of tea but 'A' has proven to me that in everyone's life, there comes a soul so true and honest in loving one's self <3

'A' has sacrificed a lot for me...time, money and patience!

I am a bitch and everything in between, but still, with every passing day, 'A' manages to cope through the unexpecting-atif-pms-storm with full determination, love, and strenght with a smile on 'A''s face on every ending day ....beautiful indeed!

i guess thats just my way of expressing love...torture=love..hmmmm

Just yesterday, 'A' surprised me with a bracelet that spells out my name!( although the guy who sold it spelled out my name as 'AFIT' instead of "ATIF' but 'A' managed to fix that problem infront of me)

Im just sooooooooo grateful on meeting someone so true with love and i wont take this for granted like what i used to do on my past lovers.

Everytime i learn something new about 'A', i fall deeper in love and all i can say now is i love you i love you i love you I LOVE YOU!!!!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!

That said, 'A' scored an A+ on my charts ;)

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Well well well guys...here's something on my personal life >

could it be? maybe ;)

Honestly, i wasnt even into this person 'A'. We met at a friend's birthday party back in July (but we hardly even talked, infact, i didnt even noticed 'A'), then we stumbled again through the internet and we started chatting.

And no i didnt play it cheap!

Rejection was my game but still, 'A' never gave up and kept on trying till i literally said F*** OFF!

And thats what 'A' did :P

But then about 2 weeks ago, we bumped into each other again, this time in a club and 'A' said hi and i said hi as well. Nothing more than that.

Then as i left the club, 'A' came chasing after me and asked for my number...which after all the effort, i decided what the heck.

And from that moment on, 'A' kept sms-ing me and even asked me out which i said yes to (a big relief to 'A'...attt lassssttt..hahaha )

and till now (the day i wrote this blog) we've been out on 4 dates and i must say that it was no mistake at all. Loving everything 'A' is doing for me and i feel sooo appreciated.

So thank you cupid for aiming that arrow my way.

ps: nothing official yet and im still in a 50/50 state.

In the words of my pop idol Anastacia- to my future lover, fate will find you cuz you have the power of truth behind u

<3