Love sick...or Sick of love?

(sorry that all i ever talk about is LOVE. But thats what been playing a HUGE role in everyone's life)

Here i am sitting in my room, listening to songs i used to listen 4 years back.
I remember myself well...obese, naive, playful, in love but oh so clueless.
Yes, clueless of what the future has to offer me....a whole lotta BULLSHIT!

So my story dates back in high school. I had a crush, or can i say crushes, none of it worked out. This was most likely due to my two enemies...One called Tripple chin, the other simply Mr Tummy. Yes yes, i did mentioned i was obese!

Back then, i thought BEING in love is exactly like how we see it in the movies. A picture perfect vision.
So i was trying hard to be in love. I've already fallen in love too many times, but i never manage to successfully had an official partner. Meanwhile, everyone else around me was going through their high school love story..or as what we would call it, 'puppy love' moments.
Deep down i was envious, jealous and upset with those lovebirds but yet inside, im just waiting or MY moments.

(4 years later, now i know that those moments was only for me to witness through someone else).

My biggest crush was a certain someone in my class. ~Kind, gentle, smart, and honest~These were the qualities i was attracted to. Physically, there was nothing great to even look at.
'The heart was what matters'.
But a year passed and before we knew it, school was over and college parted us both. But we still kept in contact although now we're basically in strangersville.
But we never had those intimate moments, nor did we had a mutual interest. It was ALL me.

College gave me the idea that i might have a new start...or a beginning at all, to be exact!
But tsk tsk Atif, how wrong were you.
I went through the repeated dance of my failing love story.
But thats ok! Love is beautiful, pure, honest and graceful. And somewhere out there, i'll find THE ONE :)
LOL!!!!!

I kept my head held high~
I kept my hope strong at heart~
I held my faith strongly in love's hand~
I stayed on the look out for my 'Moment'.

It never came.....

2 years back, i had my first official love. Oh i was on cloud 9!
Happy as could be, i was relieved and impress at myself that i finally had someone to call my OWN!
YAY.
Shortly after, REALITY hit me in the face!
And things ended only after 2 months.
I went throught the same progress repeatedly for the next 2 years with many many (practically countless) others.
Untill now, finally, i've open my eyes and bare witness on how the world actually works.

Love isn't a fairytale nor is LIFE.
Well, not mine atleast.

These days, "I Love You"s no longer sweep me off my feet.
It no longer thrills me of the fact that love has 'found' me. And i dont believe in it either. unfortunately, Cupid has lost its power on me and all arrows are now broken.

Some might say im just 'frightened' of love, others may say im just heartless. Which is it?
maybe its a little bit of both. Besides, why do we always need to choose between one another?

Love has lost its quality to me. And maybe i spoke to soon. Maybe my time has yet to come..after all, im only 21.
But for the moment, i'll stick to what i know and learned from that funny cruel four letter word....

L.O.V.E

Yours truly,
Bitterheart.

Arthur's Day Celebration Concert UPDATE

So It has been confirmed that Timbaland wont be making an appearance at the concert here in Malaysia but that opened up spaces for 2 more international acts for the night!

Give it up for Colby O Donis and Flo Rida!! woot woot ~

Yes its been confirmed that the two starts will be slotting in at the concert.
Colby O Donis is well known for producing hit songs for other big names such as Lady Gaga, Che'nelle and Akon (among others). Lately his new single featuring our very own Mizz Nina tittled 'What you waiting for' is now a huge hit locally.

And ofcourse the hip hop/R&B Flo Rida famous for all his club-hit music such as 'cant handle me' and 'Low'.

Got your tickets yet?

TIMBALAND a no show?

Yes, it is reported on Twitter by 'JunkOnline' that Mr. Timbaland will not be able to make it for Arthur's day concert here in Malaysia as posted in my previous blog. But officials has yet to announce the reason for he's cancellation.Guess we'll just have to find out when it makes it to the local papers soon.

tsk tsk...

Arthur's Day Celebration Concert, Malaysia.

2 International Big names will be making their way down to Sunway Lagoon's surf beach, KL at 8pm this 24th September 2010.
Tickets will be sold for 3 different prices >

White Zone: RM 98
Black Zone: RM 198
Gold Zone (Mosh Pit): RM 350

So wondering who those stars are?.....drum role please!

Its mr. SEAN KINGSTON and the big man himself, mr. TIMBALAND!!!
(among other performers)

Ticketing hotlines > Galaxy: 603-2282 2020. www.galaxy.com.my
Axcess: 603-7711 5000. www.axcess.com.my
sunway lagoon: 603-5639 0000. www.sunwaylagoon.com


or for more information at www.arthursday.com.my

Bali oh Bali....

Wazzup guys!
time for some personal wrap on my Bali trip last weekend.

oh man,.....it was a really great holiday. Loads of fun with little of sleep.
my poor eyes.

Anyway, our adventure began on the th of August 2010. The 7 of us (me, my brother, 2 of my cousins and 3 of my friends) took the 9am Flight out of KL on Airasia. I only managed to get an hour of sleep the night before due to 'excitmentness' :p

So already i've lost 7 hours of my sleep and the 3 hour flight didn't help either. But thats just because i guess im not really a 'flying sleeper'.
We arrived in Bali around 1pm and left for our hotel in Denpasar called...(are you ready?...)....Hotel Taman Suci on Jalan Imam!!!
holy moly. ;D


So it wasn't one of our planned hotel to stay in during the trip. This was due to the failed bookings on another hotel we planned on staying in instead.

Our first 3 hours on the island already proved to promise us a very crazy holiday. Booze was our first local friend and sober was unheard of.

We then travelled to Kuta to have a taste of the local scenes. We even lost our way and walked an hour around town only to find ourselves back on the same street. we had a really good laugh there.
By the time we were back to our hotel, i was sloshed and went to zzz at 1am.

On the second day we moved to Bakongsari Hotel.
Our personal favourite :)


We ddint waste much time in our rooms and quickly made our way to the amazing beach!
wow wow wow.
The sand, the sea, the waves, and my oh my the eye candies!!!
it was beautiful in every way possible. hehehe. beautiful~
I think the only thing that spoiled the environment there was us. lol
some of us had a dip in the sea, some of us decided to get a temporary tattoo. Me, well im just there to get burned and stare at all the passing 'goodies' and just...drool.
Surfing and kite flying are 2 of the main activities there.

i felt like i was watching a coca-cola Ad here. ;p

Throughout our 4 days visit, we managed to do some interesting activities on the island.
River rafting was one of them!
woohoo......now THAT was a lotta fun!
the 2 hour rollercoaster ride got us all wet and thrilled out of our heads.

I didnt manage to take a lot of photos on my Blackberry. It was simply too expensive for me to make calls or even use my bb internet service there. So im sorry for that.

After the rafting trip, we were brought to a beautiful temple situated on a cliff overlooking the breathtaking ocean, giving us the most spectacular view i've seen!
it was just...WOW!!!

(i took this picture personally..heheehh)

And there, we witness the kecak fire dance which tells the story of a princess, giants, white monkey and a sneaky king who wants to kidnap the princess.
The dance was so mesmerizing till we forgotten to look at the sunset as well and when we realize it, its already dark.


We had dinner on the beach after...all good :)

That night, i managed to experiance the local night life....we went to 4 clubs. One of them > Facebar. no..not facebook..facebar.
And unlike Malaysia, here, they have after party clubs. So at 4am, we left to a club called 66. Whats unique here?...BUNGEE JUMPING!
All 6 of us took the leap of trust. All except me that is. After a really painfull and terrifying experiance on a bungee ball, i was just not willing to take the risk on bungee jumping that night.

The first 2 days in Bali was a slow one..but the next 2 days just flew by us with the speed of a falcon!
On our last night there, 3 of us (me, my brother and a friend) went on to party up and get trashed in Facebar again. Here, i was extra friendly and made lots and LOTS of friends! hahahaa....i miss them already :(
For our after party, we headed to a club jus 10 minuets away from our Hotel...DEE JAY CLUB! One of the best clubs i've been to!!!!!!
The music was FANTASTIC, the lights was sparkling brilliant and the podium was a concert-standard stage!
we partied on till 8am and woke up later at 10am to get our stuff packed.


The 4 days was an unforgetable adventure and we cant wait to be back on Bali and meet our local 'friends' there again and go for a bike ride around the crazy streets of Kuta.
Till then, looks like i just gotta get used to being back home again. :(





Thanks Bali for the tiring, painful, thrilling yet FUN experiance.
xoxo
AZ



ps: Happy Birthday Myra*

'Decorate' by YUNA!

Known as Malaysia's Norah Jones, Yuna is one of the country's most precious diamond in the music industry.
I had a listen to her 2nd album- 'Decorate' - and i was left in aww.
One word can described this album....Awesomely Beautiful! (okay so its 2 words but thats only because i really think its worth calling it AWESOME!).

'Decorate' consists of 10 tracks.
1. gadis semasa
2. these streets
3. penakut
4. fireworks
5. random awesomeness
6. rocket
7. permission
8. cinta sempurna
9. decorate
10. super something & dan sebenarnye


So im not a professional critic....but here's MY point of view on each track.

-Gadis Semasa-
previously known as 'Lagu Baru' before Yuna had a name for it, I can honestly see this track to be used as one of Grey's Anatomy soundtrack. But only because it reminds me strongly of the kind of music used in the show.
And therefor i wont be surprise one day we'll be hearing this as one of our local drama/movie soundtrack.
Gadis semasa talks about how typical boys always seems to want to find that certain girl who is willing to give him everything, not seeing what he already has infront of him and is just too inlove with himself. A situation both boys and girls have/been/will go through. Therefor its universally an acceptable song..if you understand malay ofcourse ;)

-These Streets-
This track has a more urban indie feel to it. I tend to imagine myself walking down the dark corners of an empty street. But im just explaining the music's FEEL in it.
What it's about? > When a relationship gets complicated due to the emptiness of a dying spark, one can only wonder where its going....
need i say more?

-Penakut-
Another one of my top favourites, 'Penakut' explains the complication of one's intention on another due to uncertain wants. Love is not all easy right? Especially when one does not belong to the other. long story short. The music in this is more simple, sad and direct. And thats all thats needed to make a song so beautiful yet strongly expressive.

-Fireworks-
There's always an up and down. In my book, this is one of those songs i have yet to have a 'liking' to it.
If i have to describe a scenario for this melody, it'll be a group of teens high on drugs in a room while the visions blur in and out spirally out of control. Can you picture it?..Keep in mind this is all only my point of view ya!
what the song is about? > ummmm....... (im too distracted by that image, i can hardly focus on the words).

-Random Awesome-
Back to being sober!
'Random awesome' is just awesome (period)
The melody in this one is just happily breathtaking yet simple. Its talks about falling in love and keeping it in between themselves.
It expresses the beauty and thrill of finding new love perfectly. This is one of those songs that just makes you want to smile quietly.
;)

-Rocket-
If you're a Yuna follower then this track would be all too familiar.
One of the 3 tracks from her previous album, 'Rocket' talks about being appreciative and happy to always have a partner to go through life with.
An easily love-able track, the melody here is so bubbly and fun...you can sense the happiness and love in this one. And Yuna still somehow keeps it simple and pleasing!
Now, all 3 tracks from the previous album had work done on the instrumentals. Here, there's more background vocals and extra instruments.
This track was recorded in LA.

-Permission-
Catchy indie beat.
'Permission' explains how one cope with a break-up. Pretending is all what she's trying to do. To pretend to move on and be happy when in fact, she's upset and empty.
Once love ends, EMPTINESS sets in everything an ex couple shared.
Just a brief explanation about this track.
Come to think of it, this track should just be tittled 'Empty'. :p


-Cinta Sempurna-
aahhhhh....'Cinta sempurna'
Another of my favourite from her previous album. One of the most emotional, heartfelt, sad malay song to date.
'Cinta Sempurna' tells how one is nto able to accept another's love and commitment due to fear of...perfection.
Did i not mention that love is complicated?
Well this song just states that not everything thats perfect ends beautifully.
The 'improvements' made on this track includes the background vocals and added violin instrumentals. classic.

-Decorate-
The MOST disappointing track in the album.
beautiful arrangements, perfect lyrics, clear expressions......what's the problem???
take a listen and tell me in 1 minuet why.
Time time time!It needs MORE.
Its too short for a bloody good song!!!!
I, no..WE, DEMAND a longer version of this!
such a waste of one of the most best track i've heard.
'Decorate' stories how one has been rejected but stays where they are in hopes of the ex 'comeback'. A sad song actually.
Its even more sad for us listeners when we only get 1 minuet of it. :(

-Super Something-
Back to being catchy, 'Super something' is another soundtrack potential song (to my ears) ;)
To me, it pretty much tells how Yuna is dedicating this song to all her friends who made it possibe for her to be what she is now...from nothing, to a super something!
But the beauty of this song more relates on how it can also be dedicated to just anyone who's made one very happy.

and finally....

-Dan Sebenarnye-
Yuna's winning song. The one that brought her to the limelight, making her known, and made her the big winner at the recent AIM.
'Dan Sebenarnye' is more of a rebound song (or so thats what she said in a radio interview in LA).
What the story is about?> Being in denial after a break-up. A sense of hope and 'what ifs' still holds on to one's bitter heart.
Unlike the other 2 previous song, 'Dan Sebenarnye' has been improvised in a total different way towards it's feel and emotion.
You can consider it an acoustic version of the song but with added instrumentals and better vocal clarity and performance.
To me, this is a better expression of the song. mellow...

So there you have it peeps...Yuna's DECORATE.
Worth the money to get.
The album will be sold nation wide in AUGUST.
Yuna has proven to herself and everyone else that she's a talented artist.

However, if you've been to her showcase or has been youtubing her performances the you'd noticed that some of the tracks she performed are not in the album...example: coffee.
This is due to its release only in her american album. darn....gotta get my hands on them somehow! When there's a will, there's a way baybeh :D


*So to YUNA, Kuddos on this well produced album!*

....Anastacia the JUDGE....

Multi-award winning, Sprock queen, (and ofcourse, my idol) international singing superstar Anastacia will bring her unique professional and personal experience to the Don’t Stop Believing judging panel. An accomplished singer, dancer and songwriter, Anastacia has sold over 20million records worldwide.

And therefor its no wonder this little lady with the big voice is one of 4 chosen judges.

Don't Stop Believing is a UK talent show for aspiring groups that can dance and sing. A very GLEE themed competition.

The other 3 judges includes former EastEnders actress Tamzin Outhwaite, Blue member Duncan James and High School Musical choreographer Charles "Chucky" Klapow.

And not forgetting 'Baby Spice' Emma Bunton as the show's host.